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I don’t understand why this is happening

Fuck it where are you

[Neither does he? Stede's not sure when he started to lose his damn mind but he thinks it was Blowjob Day.]

My cabin. I'm alone at the moment.

Day one for Izzy who has clearly been losing his fucking mind since the night he arrived.

He growls and scrubs his face with his hand before pocketing his phone and pulling himself up. No idea where Ed or Lucius are on this little boat, but he’s been perched out on the back of the small quarterdeck. It’s a bit stupid but he’s been missing his wings. He’d quite like to jump and glide away right now.

But no, no instead he goes to see Stede. Certified fucking mad man.

Izzy knocks at the door twice with his knuckles before opening it anyway, not waiting for permission to walk into what feels like a big fat trap.

A beat. He looks unimpressed from his position leaning in the door jamb.

“I’d very much like to know what exactly it was you’n Edward discussed.”

When Izzy enters, Stede is near the window, tending to the small assortment of plants he's been accumulating over the past few months. Being an Emerald means he's got an affinity for plant life, and he's very much enjoying having a greener thumb than usual. He glances up at Izzy and sets down the little glass mister bottle he's been using to water his succulents, turning away from the window with his hands folded patiently in front of him. He fixes Izzy with a smile. Such nice manners will go a long way with Captain Bonnet.

"Of course. Have a seat, if you'd like." He gestures to the little table and chairs occupying the space across from the bed, crossing to sit at one of the chairs. He is, at the least, fully dressed this time. "Mainly what we discussed our individual encounters with you that day."

He was sort of impressed that Izzy managed to get kisses from the both of them in such a short span of time, truth be told. "Both of us were afraid the other might be angry, of course, but we resolved that in short order. Ed seemed rather fascinated by my own account, of course..."

His gaze wanders to Izzy, trying to gauge his expressions. It's hard to know how far is too far with the man, and then how far is far enough on the other hand.

Mm, yeah he had a feeling that's what this is about.

Reluctantly, very reluctantly, Izzy crosses the room, closing the door behind with his foot. Sitting makes it feel weird and formal and civilized, so he stays standing and elects to do so behind the offered chair - hands resting on the seat's back. If he wants, he can leave quickly and there is a physical barrier between them. Not a conscious choice, but it makes him feel safer.

Is he in trouble, here? Ed doesn't seem to be present. There's quite a lot that has happened between all of them and it's all happened extremely quickly. Just the thought makes him dizzy and his guard is, naturally, on very high alert. He isn't sure if he's in danger, here. He isn't sure if he wants to be. That's a frightening thought.

"And?"

Stede doesn't object to Izzy's choice to remain standing, simply folding his hands in front of him. He's itching to make tea, but he's got Izzy's attention now and he's not of a mind to waste it.

"Well," Stede hedges, "we made an agreement. To see what happens, so to speak. Anything goes, as long as we're honest with each other about it." He chuckles. "Although, hilariously, it was Lucius who alerted me to the whole tattoo situation first."

Which...he didn't mean to rat Lucius out, but he honestly thinks it's kind of hilarious. He takes a long, slow inhale to wind himself up for the next part.

"But as for where the two of us stand, I'm afraid I'm a bit confused."

So it’s…what. An open marriage? Is he being asked to be a prop or is this an invitation into something more.

The idea that something more could even be a possibility is absolutely fucking stunning.

Izzy’s gaze flicks from Stede to the bed. It hasn’t been long since he was laid out on it under Edward. Does Stede know. Was it sanctioned. Forgiven. Is that why Stede wants to see the tattoo so badly.

Izzy was very clear with Ed that he didn’t want to exist on this boat to play audience to this union. Ed had rebuffed it but failed to give Izzy a designation and then fucked him in his marriage bed. So.

Confused, no kidding.

“I don’t think we stand anywhere,” he answers truthfully and looks back - mind full of endless pleasure spread open across those soft, soft sheets which smelled like Edward and Stede combined.

Absently, Izzy’s hand raises to his chest, but he stops himself just in time and curls his fingers. He must remember that Stede propositioned him just now. He also makes a mental note re Lucius. There is some tangling between them as well.

Oh this is so very complicated. And emotional. And delicate. And confusing! Had Izzy lived under different circumstances his poet’s heart would be so overwhelmed with promise. As he stands now he is overwhelmed with suspicion, mind racing as it calculates how much of this may be a trap. How much danger is he in. How exposing himself in any way- trusting Stede in any way- may destroy him.

Kindness is always a trap.

“So- so you’n Edward,” he tries, working it across his mind in real time. Is it Stede and Edward at all, or is Stede doing this for Edward. For Izzy? Is it pity?

“Why the fuck would you ever want me?”

Oh, Stede knows. Stede got every little detail out of Ed, listened with a dry mouth and a pumping heart as Ed had told him what transpired. And he doesn't miss the way Izzy's eyes dart behind him, toward the bed, as if remembering the same.

He nods, mulling that over. If they stand nowhere...could they stand somewhere? Anywhere? The rules of this planet, the overall lack of danger compared to their life of piracy, they all make it difficult to find one's footing. And ever since their last meeting, Stede's found himself wondering if he and Izzy might ever be able to find a common ground.

Izzy pipes up again, working over the words as he says them, he can see it in his face, and Stede hums below his breath. "I can't speak for Ed, of course," he murmurs. "But I do know you're awfully important to him. And...if someone's that important to Edward, then I've got to respect that, complicated as it may be." His lashes flutter, his gaze flicking from Izzy's face to his hands folded on the table. "As for me, well."

The sunburn and freckles on Stede's cheeks can't hide the flush that has crept up from his neck. "I can't deny that, despite my general dislike for you...you have your charms."

He recalls distinctly their confrontation in Nassau, how Izzy had torn Stede's shirt to shreds without breaking a sweat or shearing a single hair off Stede's chest. How he'd admitted to kind of liking it. A memory he's never quite been able to shake off, a stark impression of a man both infuriating and highly capable. An intoxicating combination, to be sure.

So Stede is literally...directly...actually propositioning him. Of his own volition. With Edward's awareness or at least approval. Because Izzy has charms. That is.

That is the most buckwild thing he has ever fucking heard.

And yet, it's kind of nice? Ugh, Izzy, no. Bad.

"And you think because I sucked you off that I would want this," he asks flatly. In actuality, he sort of does. A deep voice in the back of his head offers the coward's way out and he nearly shivers from the force of it's presence. If you can't beat them, join them. It fits right along side Edward's promise to have a place beside him with the inclusion of Stede.

Is this what he had meant?

Would it have been like this back home had he been more vocal about his feelings? If he hadn't gleaned every scrap of intimacy through violence and absent minded pats on the back? Could he've had this the whole time? How long? It makes the knot in Izzy's stomach clench tightly. Is he honestly that stupid? Revelation after revelation. It makes him feel a bit sick.

He had been fucked up and self destructive enough two weeks ago to sink to his knees in challenge. Is he fucked up enough to lay on his back now?

Probably. He deserves it.

Stede isn't sure what to expect, but Izzy's response, his flat tone of voice, immediately cause his brow to wrinkle in confusion. He knows there were some sort of weird power dynamics at play that day, but he distinctly remembers Izzy asking to do it. Lemme suck you off, he'd breathed, voice all gravel and crushed velvet. Stede blinks several times, looking up at Izzy askance with uncertainty written all over his face.

"Er, well, yes? You...offered, so I just thought..." That it had been something Izzy wanted. That he had been wanted. Just a little bit. At the very least, that he was conveniently-placed and not repulsive. Stede lifts his shoulders, a bit flustered. He'd been so sure of himself for a minute there. Stupid, really. He's often wrong.

"If I was mistaken, then I offer my apologies for the misunderstanding."

Backing down. As he thought. What a disappointment.

Izzy takes it all in for a beat and exhales through his nose. He can see that this is the precipice of action, and if he doesn't bend now then the tumbling future before them will be nothing but pain.

"The thing you misunderstand is, Bonnet," Izzy says as he lets go of the last of his fucks and raises his hands to his shirt front, loosening his tie before he begins on the fastenings.

"If you want something, you need to take it."

It's an intricate game, this one. Stede has faltered, but it is so be expected, really. He doesn't know how to play. They haven't known each other long enough. He doesn't know the only way Izzy can accept these things is at the sting of his own defeat. That he's never been allowed otherwise and wouldn't know the first place to start.

Shirt and waistcoat opened enough, he pulls them to reveal the left side of his chest, adorned with thick black ink in the shape of a kraken - entirely filled in and already healed. Knowing the effects of Edward's tears, one can imagine what it did to him.

"No matter the resistance, you do not stop until it is yours."

Stede spends a moment trying, as he often has, to decipher Izzy's facial expression. The man is hard to read, his expressions minute and easy to miss. He finds himself wishing, not for the first time, that the man came with an instruction manual.

And then, alarmingly, he's loosening his cravat, that little ring glinting above the knot, and begins to undo his buttons. Stede feels his mouth go dry, not understanding until that fabric is yanked to the side, showing off the black mark on his chest. Stede's fingers curl against the tablecloth, rings glinting from his knuckles, unable to stop from connecting the shape of Ed's mark on his chest and the words coming from Izzy's mouth. Eyes still glued to his chest, Stede slowly shakes his head as he remembers how to form words, finally dragging his gaze up to Izzy's.

"I've never been one to take what wasn't willingly offered," he admits. "It doesn't sit right with me. But you...you like that?" It had been fairly evident from Lucius's photograph that Izzy had been enjoying himself that day, pinned down by Ed and all his tentacles, being marked. Claimed. How could Stede ever hope to match that?

Does he like it.

No one has ever asked him before, that's just how it's always been. It is the closest approximation of tenderness he has experienced and it's always been fine. He has always endured. Sometimes, being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you've been ruined, and he is a ruined man.

"Is what it is," he manages, words getting stuck beside the truth of no, actually, I don't like it at fucking all but beggars can't be choosers. It's fine.

This is why Stede Bonnet is a shit pirate. Who looks for consent on the open water, especially in their trade? It doesn't fucking exist.

"Are you gonna make me ask, or what?" he says and jostles his shirt a bit. Stede asked for his tattoo and he's offered it. Is that not good enough?

Izzy's answer isn't a no, but it isn't a yes, either, and for a moment Stede's tender heart clutches in his chest, hurting for this man who's only been offered rough touches and forced affection. He wonders if he's ever been given to instead of just taken from. There are miles between those two things, Stede knows. Just as there are miles between a marriage you chose and a marriage that was chosen for you, something he never realized until Edward.

"Oh," he murmurs, snapping back to attention as Izzy jostles his shirt, and he rises to his feet. No, he won't make Izzy ask, but the demand is consent enough for Stede, and he comes around the table with bated breath. His eyes flicker from Izzy's to the tattoo, uncertainly, and slowly he reaches his fingers out. He has a theory as to how this might work, based on what Ed's later recollection of the encounter, and his gaze slides back up to Izzy's face as they brush against the black ink, gentle and warm. Watching, with bated breath, for the reaction he knows will come.

Just the gentle rub of fabric against Izzy's skin has been enough to keep him teetering on the edge - but under warm, soft fingers it's like sliding into a pool of warm, all enveloping bliss. The reaction is huge and immediate as Izzy gives a fucking filthy moan and closes his eyes. His knees threaten to buckle out from under him and he reaches out to find purchase against Stede and keep himself up, grabbing the back of the man's neck for stability. Just like that, he's his. It's so fucking easy.

Has Izzy ever been given to, no. Not even this really counts. It isn't exactly taking, but it isn't giving. He doesn't know what to call it, all he knows is that coherent thought is leaving him as quickly as the tattoo's sensations flood in to replace it. By then, he doesn't care. By then he's pressing his face into Stede's neck wanting- needing the contact more than anything else.

Stede is there to catch Izzy before his knees can betray him, one strong arm looping around his waist just as the other man clasps a hand around his neck. Goosebumps scatter across his skin as he takes in the reaction, spellbound, the gorgeous moan erupting from Izzy's mouth, the way his eyes squeeze shut from the force of it. He knows all too well what that ink does, had spent an entire morning letting orgasm after orgasm wrack his body at Ed's behest, had sucked it from his thumb all too eagerly.

He can understand, then, why Izzy's immediate instinct is to buckle into him, to grasp at him and bury his face in Stede's neck, where he can feel the damp warmth of every heavy breath. His reaction is pure instinct; he pulls Izzy close, against his broad chest, and passes a soothing hand over his hair, petting it back away from his face. "There, there. I know. It's a lot, isn't it?" He slips into this gentleness so easily, because it is who he is at his very core. And he's never seen someone so in need of gentility in his life. Now the only question is whether or not Izzy will take it.

"He ran me through the wringer, the first time we changed together. I swear my heart nearly gave out..." He doesn't mention that it was because all his blood supply was being pumped so hard to his massive prick. "But Ed took care of me then." Stede bends his head, brushing his nose against Izzy's hair, smelling for the first time the scent of whatever pomatum he uses. "Will you allow me to do the same for you?"

The only pomade Izzy was able to procure from Filia had been some local brand, scented with the familiar scents of citrus, palm leaf and vanilla cream. Not his old faithful, but it was fine enough and is distinctly warm against his prickly personality.

Mind you the only thing prickly now is between his legs, straining with urgent need.

Stede says something to him and he nearly misses it, too busy with the sensation of skin on warm skin and a strong body against him. Too focused on the vibrations of Stede's voice to receive every word. He is weak all at once, and needs a moment to process. Needs a lot of things.

Take care of him. Him. He.. he could really fucking do with being taken care of, yeah.

And so he nods before dragging his face up a little to press his lips to Stede's neck and lap a stripe up to the bottom of his ear. He knew this would happen if he gave Stede his tattoo, he knew, but it doesn't feel as ugly as he thought it might. How could it possibly when he's being touched like this. When beautiful things are being said to him.

When he answers the breathy whisper is so small and so vulnerable.

"Please."

Stede drags in a ragged breath, feeling Izzy's lips press against his skin, and then the shock of his tongue dragging up over the ridge of his jaw to his ear. Oh, he could so easily get drunk on that, or on the way Izzy answers, a voice so tiny he'd miss it if he weren't waiting with bated breath. His blood sings with triumph, chest rising and falling just a hare more quickly where it's pressed to Izzy's. There's a fragile and tense trust between them now, a tacit agreement that what's happening can happen, and he's determined not to ruin it if he can at all help it.

"Come on then," Stede beckons, his voice low and warm as he walks them backward to the bed. His fingers still stroke through Izzy's hair, and when the backs of his knees meet the coffin-shaped bed, he pivots Izzy around and gently plies him down to sit on its edge. "Sit right here," he murmurs, and then gets to his knees between Izzy's thighs. He doesn't rush, but he doesn't linger too long, either, his own arousal flaring in his gut and making him more impatient than he might otherwise be. His fingers find the laces of Izzy's trousers and begin to pull them open methodically.

"You may pull my hair, if you like," he breathes, pulling Izzy's cock out and pausing just for a moment to take him in, get a feel for the weight and breadth of him. He's wanted to do this for two weeks, thought about it each time he's caught Izzy staring. Imagined himself paying Izzy back, so to speak, for the rather devastating blowjob he'd delivered. Now that he gets to do it, he's so eager he almost doesn't know where to begin, and he pauses with Izzy's prick in hand, mouth inches away.

"Tell me how you want it," he says softly.

Edited (repetitive word choice >:() 2022-08-04 00:47 (UTC)

Tell him-

"I-" mmm. Words are very difficult for him at the best of times, never mind now. Never mind expressing what he wants. Who has ever cared what he wants?

Izzy reaches forward, delicately brushing his bare fingers through Stede's shining curls. His hair is so soft and elegant. Another perfect thing on this perfect man, he fucking hates it.

He hates it less taking in the full picture of the moment. That Stede Bonnet is on his knees, asking to service Izzy however he'd like. That he wants to. That he brought him here to do this one, specific act. Not to fuck him, not to make him watch him and Edward, to service him. The weight of that revelation is absolutely fucking staggering. In all honestly, Izzy doesn't know how to respond. He bites his bottom lip for a moment, thinking, all of this quite visible on his face. How can you ask for what you want when you don't know? So he defaults to safe territory.

"I want it how you'd do for Edward."

As if this act might come from a place of affection. That he might feel wanted, even if it is second hand.

Stede's patient as Izzy hesitates over his question. He can understand why it might be challenging, if all he knows is being taken from, but he's happy to wait, to let Izzy's fingers curl into his hair, a warm exhale feathering over the head of his cock. And his answer—

"Oh, yes," Stede replies. "I can do that." He doesn't waste any more time, just drops his head to smear the head of Izzy's cock against the seam of his lips. Just a bit of a tease, before his tongue darts out to lick him into his mouth with wide, warm laps, swallowing him down and groaning at the taste of him, the weight of him on his tongue. He wants to let his eyes fall shut, but he keeps them open and trained on Izzy's expression, on high alert for any sign he might not like something.

He takes him in to the hilt, til his nose is buried in Izzy's pubic hair and he's just grazing the back of his throat, and then Stede draws slowly back, letting him slide out of his mouth only to turn his head to mouth sloppy licks and kisses down the side of his shaft.

Ohhh fuck, if that is not one of the single sexiest things that has ever fucking happened to him.

And to be clear, it isn't as though Izzy is some bumbling fucking virgin. He isn't inexperienced, he is starving not fasting. There is a difference. But to be swallowed like that, by this specific man, with intense eye contact all the while. Yes. Yes, this is exactly what he wants.

If this is what Edward gets all the fucking time-

-yeah, yeah, okay. Maybe he can see why he's moved on to Stede so easily. So fully. Why he fucking married him.

He gets it, and that hurts so very terribly. How could he compare. How could he hope to provide. He hates himself that little bit more and it tangles ugly into the bliss rushing through his veins. Bastards, the both of you.

"Fuck," almost reverent. "You are something, Bonnet."

Wrecked already, Izzy tightens his fingers in Stede's hair, setting all his height on his other hand to keep himself upright, and widens his legs that little bit more. It's tempting for him to also close his eyes but he can not miss a second of this. Every feeling and movement and sight all searing into his flesh. Were he to experience heat it would feel like this. Unstoppable and uncontrollable, hips desperate to rise up and push himself back down Stede's hot, wet throat.

Stede can't help but grin at Izzy's reaction, the way he says that Stede is something. It's the closest thing to a compliment Izzy Hands has ever given him, and Stede knows he has to treasure it. He agrees with a low mmmm, dragging his tongue flat up the underside of Izzy's prick just to swallow him down again. No sense leaving the man wanting any longer than he already has, and Stede's too eager to tease him much longer.

He's thorough, but not prudish about it. It seems his aristocratic fussiness doesn't extend to the bedroom, where he abandons himself happily to his partner's pleasure. He treats Izzy to lots of long, languorous strokes, saliva pooling on his tongue to ease the works, groaning when he feels pre-come well up and burst over his tongue. Oh, he could just devour this ridiculous, angry little man whole, and honestly? He just might. He tastes incredible.

There would be no objection from Izzy who is absolutely thriving under Stede's efforts. As good as this would be straight, the addition of his tattoo heightens every sensation to a degree he can not compute. The man's hot, wet month, his attentive tongue, the vibration in his throat when he hums, it is euphoria. Like a blow job and sinking his cock into someone's sex all at once.

It would be too easy to give in and it be over far too soon. He can't have that.

Izzy reluctantly releases Stede's hair and gropes for his right hand, raising it up and guiding it to his chest. Past his tightly pebbled nipple to get Stede's fingers back on the ink of Ed's mark while Izzy shifts his own hands. One back into Stede's hair (tighter this time) and, having to now sit properly, using the other to press his thumb hard against the base of his cock. A move designed to restrict blood, forcing his prick to flare, but also denying him release.

Eventually, Stede's eyes flutter shut, firmly fixated on his work. It isn't until he feels Izzy's fingers release his curls that they open, watching as Izzy guides one of his hands up over his chest—god, his chest—to find Ed's mark. Understanding, Stede rubs his fingers gently over the spot, cautious at first. He wonders if Izzy will allow the sensation to overtake him, but it seems the man's thought of it all, if the thumb pressed at the base of him is any indication

Good, Stede thinks. It means he doesn't have to go easy on him. He presses deeper down onto Izzy's cock, inhaling heavily though his nose, and doesn't stop until his lips brush Izzy's thumb. His palm gives Izzy's gorgeous tit a squeeze before he lets his fingertips press into that tattoo, less gently this time. Knowing how it will send shocks of pleasure straight down Izzy's spine just as the back of his throat closes around his cockhead.

It's like fucking lightening, and were Izzy not physically stopping himself from release he would tip over that edge immediately. Half of him is desperate to spill down Stede's throat for the pure satisfaction of the act. The other half is nowhere near ready for this to stop.

His fingers curl ever tighter, a filthy noise in his throat.

As usual, he finds himself thinking about the man who did this to him. Mentally inserting him into the equation, standing behind him on the bed, wrenching Izzy's head back by his hair to swallow his cock. Or perhaps under him, splitting him open at the same time Stede swallows him down. Fuck, wouldn't that be something. Stede's hair is so soft. His mouth is so hot. God, he can't fucking think.

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